In my opinion , this is all normal for me.Let's face it I'm being nice or what nobody cares for them I don't exist in this world and i always been alienated just because i look like an Indian.What do you expect my dad is an Indian?My sister on the other hand, everyone loves her both family side because she looks more to Filipino,more prettier and she is a good daughter/grand daughter/niece etc.......
I have always been ignored and in their eyes I'm bad because i have Indian look and my skin darker than my sister!The love comparing both of us : dark,tall, Indian look,thin/skinny ......Not only family members ....relatives...but my mum friends also said the same thing!I get used to it anyway and doesn't matter to me anymore!
I lost people who i love so much and that really hurts..My dad left me and my 2 step brothers they also gone!They don't love me or even miss me anymore. I really miss the moments when all of us are together when we were young but i guess that will always stay as memories.
I cannot show love in this family I just couldn't .......I rather show it to other people at least when they leave me I wouldn't be crushed into pieces.I couldn't take it anymore no pain for me !It's enough!I really hope my dad will go back together with my mum but i guess that is just a dream because it will never happen!He doesn't love her anymore i think because he went back to his second wife!Why the hell i ever put hopes that one day they will reunite?I should known better!
I don't want to love anyone anymore especially my family because they will always leave me.....
written by,
hopeless,retarded,lonely,ungrateful child......
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